This time, people are leaving me, and the feeling is quite comparable to leaving people, i guess...
I'm getting wrapped up in my own rollercoaster of emotions and hormones and caffeine and pot and etc... JUST KIDDING MOM!... but anyways, This past sunday during an insane night out with some crazy british people who will probably end up ruling england one day with their intelligence and wittiness, I looked around me and pretty much knocked about 4 people off the list of friends in Shanghai.. They will now be friends in England and in the US. That's just Sunday alone, this past couple of weeks, people are leaving one by one. This makes sense since it's the end of the school year for many people that were studying Chinese here. IT's just unfortunate that they were some of the closest people to me.
So I'm sitting there, looking at each and every one of these international friends, and I'm remembering some of the great, funny, ridiculous, triumphing moments we have had in the last 6 months. It's actually not a very long time since i've known these people.. and most of them less than 6 months. But the length of time is insignificant when you're attracted to someone like glue and spend all your nights out with them. Especially in SHanghai, when you're an expat, and all you have are each other to hold on to.
This whole weekend I have been feeling really down, from the partying, hormones, boys, girls, etcc.... JUST KIDDING AGAIN MOM... But then today, one of my best friends visited me here at work and for some reason my mood just did a whole 180. I started remembering the mayhem we would cause in the office when she was still here, and how easy it is to just blab every little detail of my life to her and have her either tell me I'm crazy or "well.. wait and see... maybe it's really not that bad". And I hella sure will miss that. Who's going to put me in my place when I'm acting out again... Who's going mentally slap me... i wished sometimes physically slap me, when i'm being retarded? ahhhhh
So now I'm sitting here stuffing my face with almonds and staring at my Douchebag Citation notepad ( hehehe), thinking life has always been fair to me, even though I can be a little bitch and complain about big things, little things, things that don't exist, for allowing me to meet all of these people. As short as the times were, the impact is stronger than the gravitational force of all the planets combined. I don't know how I can express myself or what can I give to these people to match what they have given me, I can only say thank you.. thank you so much for being there when I'm hitting a bottom that never needed to be hit. See you Soon :-)
Location:Shanghai
